You just had an horrendous day at work, everything went wrong and you come home and find that your husband is angry at you or you accidentally scratch the baby changing a nappy or your parents are angry for not doing as your told. We've all been there and admittedly I feel it all the… Continue reading Why Can’t I Do Anything Right
Even now When time has gone I can still feels the embers Of pain and tears Of dread and fears I didn't think it would be easy But Hell, I didn't think it would be so painful Nobody warned me About the grief and grame The side effects and depression About the losing of expression… Continue reading When You Left
I write about my griefs and anxiety and bipolar on here. I keep it real. And i dance around my BDD, I avoid talking about my eating disorder, maybe because It's still an issue in my life, maybe because I know that it's my biggest weakness or maybe in my eyes it has more stigma… Continue reading My Body Dysmorphic Disorder
If you are anything like me, the hardest you will do is manage to keep a relationship, hell, even manage to become in a relationship! Mental Illness is hellish for relationships. Your mind is constantly telling you that they don't like you or that they think your awkward and weird. Sometimes it's easier just not… Continue reading How To Tell Your Partner You Have A Mental Illness
My Grandparents died yesterday early morning and I didn't go into work that day. I tried to this morning but arrived at reception and started crying, straight of the bat. The receptionist comforted me and booked me a room, to see if I could get myself together again but I couldn't, I was too stressed,… Continue reading Is It Okay To Take Time Off When A Grandparent Dies?
When you have anxiety or a panic disorder, a little bit of stress can cause a massive train reaction to something a lot worse and you try to tell someone and all they can say is "It's just life, we all get stressed, yet we don't complain about it." And suddenly your thinking am I… Continue reading The Thing I’m Sick Of Hearing
Recently I have found myself relapsing. More panic attacks, suicidal thoughts and depressive episodes. I try not to think about it but work is intense, I go home and as Caspar has been away, I've been at my parents house, and just feel like a burden. I start to have that horrible panicy feeling like… Continue reading When Your Family is Toxic
I had a panic attack at work today. This week has been one of the hardest ones in my life, and I've been given more responsibility but with it comes a lot of stress. I got given something that I had struggled with last week and once I got through that week I was sure… Continue reading Is it Okay To Cry At Work
Every scar shows you have come through something. A scar is a healing point not a fresh wound.
I've heard being maniac can be great, open up artistic minds and I have even heard it described as the best bit of the disease, how it's like being high, euphoric. I'm not sure why people say that, maybe as a way to make light of the illness, to convenience yourself that there must be… Continue reading Mania: The Bane of Bipolar